Happy Halloween

While today is officially Halloween, yesterday was when our town celebrated the much loved Children's Holiday.

The kids and I had a FULL Day! The little ones and

I started the day off at Church while Alexa spent that time in d

ance rehearsals. While she spent a lot of time at the studio, t

he potluck provided was awesome (at least it looked and smelled awesome) and she did not complain once about being hungry after we left.

At 3:30 we rushed from the studi

o to Downtown to prepare for the Thriller performance! What a blast that was. The troupe kids all dressed up as Zombies with HUGE dead hair (complete with leaves, grass and other icky stuff) dark and light make-up and trashed and dirty costumes.

All the kids hid in various stores throughout the downtown

area waiting for the music to que,

once the music began to play, they all began to creep out of the stores...........

slowly making their way through the crowd gathered to see what was happening........

As they made their way through the crowd, their were startles and screams of surprise from many of the onlookers...........

The kids made their way into the center of the street

and began to dance to Thriller........

...

soon they drug onlookers into dance with them and our little town was dancing in the streets.......literally!

It was a lot of fun and some GREAT memories for all.

The kids also decorated pumpkins, trick or treated and went on an amazing hay ride!

This weekend was full and fun!

What a Day

What a day today has been.

There predicted damaging rain/wind storm has of yet remained fairly calm. The winds are picking up now though and others without power would definitely disagree with me on how calm it's been.

The kids were excellent tonight at small group! I am so very thankful for this group and the ability to bring my children and attend. The peace I feel for those short few hours is enough to get me through until Sunday, where I can generally gain another time of pea

ce and worship.

This week is gearing up to be a busy one. We have something going on the rest of the week and I am hoping that tonight I will get a good or better yet GREAT nights sleep so that I can garner the energy needed to get through the rest of the week.

I have gone down to the beach a few times to take pictures of the water and lighthouse in high winds and the kids have always remained home. Today they insisted that they too should be able to go, so we went. It was for them not near as much fun as they had hoped it would be! The sand was blowing so incredibly hard it stung and burnt any skin left exposed. We will be picking sand out of our ears, nose and hair for a week I am sure.

The pic's though are beautiful and I can't wait to share them.  I predict we will remember this for a long time.........

Here's a Thought........

Though I managed to forget this blog completely existed (I wonder if I should see a doctor about memory loss....how does one forget a blog?), I did keep a written journal. So over the next few days, weeks, months (years if I forget about it again) I am going to transfer these handwritten journals here......not that anybody will ever see them.........from what I can tell.....their is nobody looking!

There is a sort of safety in knowing that nobody follows your blog or looks at it, I can be completely free in my thoughts and really let out my frustrations..........oh where to begin!

I know......

Dear Mr. President...................

Dear Governer of Michigan.................

Dear Hateful, Conving, Spiteful woman who won't leave me be....................

Ahh, the thoughts spinning through my head don't feel too overly kind and so I think I will follow sound advice, if you don't have anything nice to say, say nothing at all. For NOW!

Look what I found!

I had forgotten I ever created this blog. What was the point I wonder? I suppose it was to give myself a Time Out and a place to sort through so many things, so that I could be a good mother and wife. A place to reflect, celebrate and possibly cry? I can't honestly say I know now. Who I was two years ago is gone and who I am now is a mere shell of that person, one I don't like much. I thought I knew what stress and hardship were two years ago, I have a new appreciation for what once seemed so difficult, yet I would gladly be there now than here.

I read through those few posts from what appears a lifetime ago, wow it blows my mind.

My last post it appears was written just as winter was about to hit almost 2 years ago. So many seasons have come and gone since then and with them so many changes. Most of the changes I could honestly say I could live without.

My once seemingly together family as last posted has been ripped at the seems. We are not a functioning family at all, and I hold little hope that we will ever be whole again. Deceit, manipulation, lies,vengeance, hate.....have ripped this family to shreds. Can we mend these? Will we be allowed to? How much more damage will seep insecurity into the very core of each person in my family? What is the long term collaterall damage to myself, children and spouse? I suppose now is not the time to reflect on that as too much is left to be done and the story is long from being written.

Ahh.....nothing like a trip down memory lane to bring out the pain of a new existence. Someday I hope memories will again bring comfort and end the sharp piercing pain of my life now.

My Baby Boy Turns 8

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